BOOM! So this is 30…

| May 12, 2014 | 6 Comments
The front of my 30th Birthday card from Jon...on the inside was a dirty joke. Photo by I Tell Stories.

The front of my 30th Birthday card from Jon…on the inside was a dirty joke. Photo by I Tell Stories.

I don’t know about you, but when April 21st rolls around, I rarely get the birthday song in my head. I get the familiar sound of John Lennon’s, “”Happy Xmas (War Is Over)” ringing in my ears, I am sure you’re familiar with the lyrics, “Another year over…And a new one just begun”.

I am not one for celebrating my birthday each year, the number typically doesn’t matter to me, and it seems like the real “birth day” I should be celebrating is my daughter’s and the fact that I survived it. But it’s considered a bit gauche to usurp your child’s special day, so I’ll just go ahead and keep the one I have.

This year, I am feeling particularly reflective. I am not sure if it’s the societal focus and pressures on those “special birthdays” – 16, 21, 25, 30, 40, 50 etc. or if it was just a personal thing for me, but as thirty approached, I was left asking myself in line with the song above, “another year is over…and what have I done?” I’ve hit all of the traditional milestones, I went to university and graduate school, got married, had a child, but though I am happy with my life, I am still left wondering if there is something more for me out there? Am I making the right choices for my daughter? Am I on the career path I should be? Am I letting go of some dreams I had as a younger person because it’s just easier and no one would know anyway…or were they never right for me in the first place?

I look around at the folks I see on a day-to-day basis, strangers on the bus, friends, co-workers, and I wonder if they are satisfied with their lives. Did they reach all of their goals? Did they have to leave dreams behind? Are they constantly striving to better themselves or are they happy with everything as it is?

Maybe readers who are older and wiser than I am and have already tackled these issues will look at this with a knowing smile on their face. But since I don’t yet have the answers, I’ll just share a birthday toast to you all, because I am feeling blessed with the time I’ve been given and the opportunity for continued growth.

“Another year over…And a new one just begun!” CHEERS!

Have birthdays or other special moments brought out a need to evaluate your life? If so, I’d love to hear about it…

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Samantha lives in Stittsville with her husband, Jon, and their daughter, Mary. Samantha works full-time for the federal government and also enjoys writing part-time, including as a writer for Ottawa Parenting Times Magazine. Feel free to check out her website – samanthaball.ca and follow her on Twitter @I_Tell_Stories

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  1. Janet says:

    I remember around the 30ish mark (only a few years back) feeling like that was the time where you had to “show your cards”. Up until then, it was about potential, and you were supposed to have “arrived” by then, and see what you have to show for yourself. Especially when it’s no longer just about milestones. My dad told me that when you’re younger, you think there’ll be an age where you’ve “arrived”, but such an age never comes.
    Now, I don’t think I’d want there to be!

  2. Victoria Ess says:

    I have had some birthday where I feel more reflective than others. In a funny way, the older I get and the more birthdays I have, the less I ask myself those questions. I think that change came alongside the development of a sort of acceptance that the only thing I can do is the best I can do, every day.

  3. Rick F says:

    It seems once you hit 30 the b’days just come faster & faster.

  4. kathy downey says:

    Oh 30 was so long ago

  5. kathy downey says:

    I would welcome 30ish back with open arms would love to do it all again !

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