Brain Fog

| December 30, 2013 | 9 Comments

I have been what it feels like, in limbo these past few weeks. No motivation to do anything, just barely hanging on to the Christmas spirit.

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Over the last few weeks, we have had a rough time. We lost my husbands step mother to cancer, and a friend’s sister as well. It just sort of happened out of the blue, well as much out of the blue I guess as it could when you have cancer. We knew it was coming but just didn’t expect it to happen so fast. On top of that a very dear friend of ours was recently diagnosed with cancer. I think its high time we find a cure to this…  It’s so frustrating just sitting by and watching the people you love get sick.
I guess I understand how my family felt while I was being diagnosed with M.S. NOT FUN!

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Lately its felt like an ongoing battle to stay cheery. Between the never-ending cycle of laundry, sweeping and moping the floors ( STUPID WINTER),  I’ve found it hard to just be happy. Thank god for my little man and my big man:) They sure know how to give you a pick me up.  It’s just been a few lazy  weeks here in the Johnson house, and I’m afraid between traveling to funerals and this little rut were going through, I haven’t really had much to think about what to post this month. I hope all of you out there in blogger land are doing well and are having a much happier time then I!

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Until next time.

Courtney.

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Category: Family, Moms, Relationships

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A number of years ago I went blind, and as a result found out I had Multiple Sclerosis. After my diagnosis, I attended a new high school for the visually impaired. That is where I met the love of my life, my husband Dylan. Dylan helped me get through becoming blind and find joy in life again. Shortly after graduating, we moved to Ottawa together and in December of 2011, we were married. A year later we welcomed our beautiful son Marshall to the world. In 2015, after two miscarriages we welcomed our beautiful rainbow baby Charlotte into the world. It hasn't been easy adjusting to being blind and living with M.S on a daily basis , and being a mom of two on top of everything. Life has been... lets say challenging! But oh so worth it!

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  1. Amanda Ferreira says:

    I am so sorry for your losses! I find it odd how bad things usually tend to happen around the Holidays a time when we are supposed to be joyous and cheerful… Maybe it is away for the world to tell us “Stop and look at what you have” a way for us to appreciate the things that are around us more.

  2. Tara Gauthier says:

    I have been following down lately. I am so tired of going to work every day and feeling blah. My manager is great but lots of other stuff going on right now with cutbacks and stuff. It has been hard to manage all that and home life. So i took two weeks off for Christmas. Spent the first week sleeping in and lounging around enjoying the Holiday and am now taking this week to work with husband to get house in order. Hoping things start to look up for us both.

  3. Brenda A says:

    What terrible hardships you and your family are experiencing. It is too often that these things compound around the holidays. Be kind to yourself and take solace in those that love you. Peace.

  4. Heidi C. says:

    I love your positive attitude in spite of all your difficulties! I admire your tremendous strength!

  5. Elizabeth Matthiesen says:

    I was sorry to read of your losses, it’s always a difficult time for family. Even though you know it’s coming it’s always very upsetting. I agree with your comment >>I think its high time we find a cure to this…<< whole heartedly. My brother has prostate cancer. It took them ages to diagnose what was wrong, he then had catheters put directly into his kidneys, his kidneys were going into failure. Now after nearly a year they say it's aggressive and he is now on Chemo. I went over to see him last summer not knowing if it would be for the last time (England) and I shall be going again this year. It's so upsetting being so far away and being unable to help. Just thinking about it and I'm crying again.

  6. Victoria Ess says:

    I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through a hard time. I hope things get better for you soon.

  7. Amy Lovell says:

    So sorry to hear of your losses……

  8. kathy downey says:

    Praying that from your posting to now life is much better.Hugs

  9. kathy downey says:

    Hope the new year up ahead with bring days of love and joy

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